Time

I work my ass off.

I'm not afraid to say that about myself because it is too true. I am a single mom so I'm ALWAYS working there. I am a full-time student with 18 hours this semester (graduate in August *does happy dance*). And I am a part-time worker who gets anywhere between 27 to 39 hours per week (I don't think they understand what "part-time" means). At work, I do my own work, the work of the other associates, and the work of my manager. Oh but I only get paid the minimum for my work....but that's a whole nother post there.

I am tired.

I am taking 6 classes this semester and I know that April is going to be a hard month for me. I have to go to class, take exams, do projects, write papers, and meet with groups (*rolls eyes*). I have my son's birthday party on the 30th. I have a wedding on the 16th. I'm sure there's more that I just can't think of at the moment. I know I have to work to support my son so I'll be working a lot too.

I miss my son.

I want to cry every morning I drop him off at daycare because he waves at me and says, "Bye, Mommy! I see you in the morning!" Because he knows my mom, dad, or brother will be picking him up from school, feeding him dinner, and putting him to bed. He KNOWS he won't see me until he wakes up to get ready for daycare and have the routine repeat itself. My baby is growing up without me all under the disguise of me making a better future for us. Fuck the future. I want to see my baby grow up. I decided I was going to make a few changes in my schedule where I could. Of course I couldn't change my school schedule. It's done and I'm too close to finishing to mess it up. That left work. I decided I was going to change my availability. Here was my old one:

Mon 6a - 11a or 3:30p - 10p
Tues 3p - 10p
Wed 6a - 11a or 3:30p - 10p
Thurs 3p - 10p
Fri, Sat, Sun any

Here is my new one:

Mon 6a - 11a or 5p - 10p
Tues 4:30p - 10p
Wed 6a - 11a or 5p - 10p
Thurs 4:30p - 10p
Fri 6a - 4:30p
Sat off
Sun any

Not THAT different, right? Well apparently it pissed my store manager off. She followed it when she made this coming week's schedule and I got the hours I asked for, but she was upset about it. Has she said anything to ME about it? No. She's talking to other people about it. In fact, she hasn't said ONE WORD to me since I left the new hours on her desk. Fine. Be that way...as long as you follow what I requested because I'm part-time and you work me like a fucking dog but pay me worse. I'm going to start making time for my son.

Kiss it.